Hey, happy almost Christmas, if that's your thing! It's not mine, although I do need to finish my husband's stocking stuffers, I just realized. Eep.

Anyway! Torquere Press is doing an advent calendar type of thing for every day in December, so today some of my books are on sale. Here, look:


To celebrate we've put Chasing Victory, Keeping Karma and The Sound of Cicadas on sale for 20% off.

Yay! Go forth and purchase.

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Cards from blacknarcissus2 and rachie203! :D <3 <3 <3

My mum was in Sainsbury's for FOUR AND A HALF HOURS today because she had to do John's mum's mental Christmas shop too. PANICKED FESTIVE GLUTTONY. She forgot shampoo and teabags but brought back six camemberts. I love my family, we know how to prioritise. :D I am seriously more excited about all this cheese and chocolate than I am about anything else, it's sort of sad. I was always a massive child about Christmas but I couldn't make myself care last year for the first time in my life, and it's the same this year too. I'm going to watch Mr Hankey and AD/BC and see if I can drrrag myself into some kind of suitable mood. I need James Stewart <3

This will also help: put a tablespoon each of brown sugar and softened butter per person into a blender, plenty of cinnamon or ginger or whatever spice you like, add a shot (or more) of dark rum and a glass of hot water per person (like whiskey tumbler size), blend, and yum. It's easier to blend in big batches but you can do it by the glass, I've got a little tiny one-person smoothie blender so that works.

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Title: Running To Stand Still
Gaining Access: Open
Author: nolagal
Word Count: 12,771
Pairing(s): Draco/Albus Severus, past Albus Severus/Scorpius
Rating: NC-17
Summary: After Scorpius's death, Albus and Draco cling together to the exclusion of the outside world until Draco's decision that there must be a new Malfoy heir fractures their fragile symbiosis.
Author's Website: nolagal's fic list
Why everyone should read this: First, I admit, I am not a cross-gen fan. And worse, I absolutely cannot see Draco doing anything with the son of Harry Potter, unless he were with Harry Potter. There, I said it. And yet, and here is where my mind was blown, I loved this fic enough to consider the possibility that I was wrong! After a tragedy in the family, Draco and Albus find solace in each other, very unexpectedly and sometimes unwillingly. Their grief is very real, as is their response to it, which makes it all that more heartbreaking. This fic is messy, and hard to read at points, but such a breath of fresh air amongst other cookie-cutter fics. And even though Scorpius is never in the scene, you feel him in every breath both Draco and Albus take, enough to feel that you know him too and are saddened by his loss. This author and I started in fandom on the same exact day and its been a pleasure to see her talent grow. This, to me, is my favorite fic of hers because not only does it make me a proud friend to know she wrote it, I'm extremely jealous of this girl's writing chops! So run to this fic, don't stand still, and give this author some much deserved love!!!!

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I've shopped, I've wrapped, I've decorated, I put up the tree, I've watched the movies, I've listened to the songs, I baked the cookies, and that's it, I'm done, I'm finished. Can it be Christmas now?

I don't know. I'm just bored. I still feel awful all of the time. There's nothing on the internets. What, are you people spending time with your families or something ridiculous like that?

Maybe it's PMS. I was running errands today and I wanted to scream at everyone who got in my way. Maybe it's just the holidays.

In more cheerful news, everyone's favourite satirical newspaper The Onion has some hysterical Christmas articles. This was my favourite: Emotionally Distant Family Spends Holidays Watching Touching Family Dramas Together. Because I think we've all been there.

And finally...

you go to someone you love's house whom you haven't seen in years. and they live in the same city as you. they ask you where you've been.
uuuuuhhhhhhhhhhh.....around?
you still living in..?
yup.
you still with..?
nope. meet my hengeman.

and then there are parties where people stand the whole time and you can't move and there's no music. just booze.
"it's just a get together to say hi! how are you? and who you fucking?"
good idea.

i love this time of the year. the snow is great. we fell on our asses. so much sex, we feel chaffed.

I just have a quick question for you all.

My JRT, Maggie, is a month short of being 2 years old, and she is still very little (as in skinny, as well as stature) and still looks like a puppy. She is all legs, and very skinny, but no doubt the dog eats. Many other JRT's I've seen at this age actually look like a full grown dog. Any reason for this? Or am I just being paranoid?

i'm finished with school, ladies and gentlemen!

Crepuscular is a term used to describe some animals that are primarily active during twilight, that is at dawn and at dusk.

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"There is nothing that competes with habit; And I know it's neither deep nor tragic; It's simply that you have to have it"

hi all,

i wonder if anyone else has similar struggles or has experienced the same, and could offer some advice.

i tend to think of eating as very numeric, or quantitatively - in terms of my meals, i find i still 'count' the number of things i eat each day, or the number of times i eat each day, and that's hard to break away from. oddly enough i don't worry about calories, nor do i weigh myself habitually - but i DO seem to stress out and think too much about how many items i eat for example, in one meal, or how many times i eat during one day.

can you all offer ideas/advice on how to break away from this? how to deal/cope with this?
Is there even any such thing as eating too many times a day? I mean, I don't think it's even POSSIBLE to eat like, 20 times a day right? I don't know...sorry if this is sounding confusing...but I notice I'm scared about / worried about eating too many times, this is why I allow myself to be hungrier during the day and then at night its a problem as I'm much too hungry by then.

Hello chaps.

I am really scared of Christmas. I've gained weight this year due to some contraception and I am trying, very hard, to not care. I have suffered from bulimia for almost ten years, now. I've never been in treatment for it though have been in treatment for BDD. It comes and goes- it was hardcore for a year or so, then I revert back for periods, not intentionally, just, it seems, when I am stressed or depressed.

I am stressed about things and I am hating my body with a passion.

I am stressed about stupid stuff and I hope you don't mind me venting about it here.

I am stressed about Christmas and all the food. I want to be normal, I want to be healthy and I have been trying but I can see my belly, I know I am medically overweight, it scares me.

My boyfriend kissed me yesterday and smelled the sick. My heart almost froze. I have these lies I tell him and he sees right through them.

I feel like my ugly and fat appearance makes me a kind of jester and fool. And stupidly (really stupidly, I am aware of this), I am jealous of my ex's new girlfriend. My ex and his girlfriend are both brilliant people, but she is so slim, so utterly beautiful that I wonder if people are laughing at me, laughing at how fat and ugly and mad I am, how lucky he is not to be with me anymore, how I didn't deserve him or anyone else in the first place. I seem to have lost a lot of friends this year and it has made me question my entire worth. I feel worthless a lot of the time.

I know that is irrational and ridiculous but it's how I feel.

My boyfriend cooks for me. Healthy, nutritious stuff- partly to get me to eat. I don't want to go back to the miserable life of throwing up. I am slipping back into it. I keep feeling like a total fraud because I am medically overweight. I wasn't until recently. I feel like nobody would believe me if I asked for help, and that i'm not that bad anyway.

I am just scared and I don't want to feel like this anymore.

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